Ok, now I’m listening to that playlist that I made for you on Spotify. It’s on random, but suddenly Cat Power’s Half of You played... and this reminded me of my dream... and what that letter says... something I haven’t told you... But I know that it will only complicate things, so I guess I should just keep it to myself. Or, just write it here.
In my dream, you wrote to me and you said that after all these years, you still love me. And even if we may not be together, that one day, you'll show me all the love that you want to give.
I told you about my dream, except for this detail. In my dream, I was so angry at my dad for throwing a notebook where you have written me a letter, and for keeping this from me. I forgot how I found out but all I knew was I found it and he was the one who tried to keep it away from me. So that I wouldn't read what you wrote. I guess in reality, I was still hoping... And holding on... That one day, I will learn... that you still love me.
I guess, my holiday blues has not really left me. I’m still feeling unamused with each passing day. I don’t know why, but I don’t feel “happy” as I expected, when I got the news of my Visa approval. And the routine of going to work just feels like a drag. Each day. I feel like I just wanna lay in bed all day. It’s only January, but I feel so tired already. Not stressed, but just... I dunno... feeling half empty?
photo credit: Ekaterina Aristova
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i love to chat and read about your own twisted thoughts. c'mon dont be scared to share them! i won't bite. in fact, if you have a blog or site, i'll surely visit and comment back. ★